Here’s the Deal.
I keep telling myself it is probably a dream. I’m actually 28, and it’s a nightmare that I have a dysfunctional back, a blind eye, a pseudo-husband with cancer, a personal problem that I am not ready to discuss but want to, and am unemployed, broke, busted, and disgusted!
So I close my eyes, and drift off, secure in the knowledge that this too shall pass.
Then I open them. It didn’t pass. It’s me. This is real life. This is my life!
And I’d damn well better get used to it!
I plan to live a good, long time. And I plan to enjoy it to the max. After solving that little personal problem, and finding some method of earning a living that my #*%! body can handle. I’m working on that. (I know. I must be kidding myself!) Okay, I guess I am!
But I can’t drive due to the eye, and I can’t teach, because with my back and bad balance from The Eye, I’d knock the children down the steps and kill them. Accidentally! This wouldn’t look good on my record. You know?
So I’m bopping along, trying to stay afloat, and trying to find a way to last a bit longer in this wonderful world we call the America From Hell.
Too harsh? OK. I’ll try to chill out while you read a blog post.
More to come. I really do hope you stay tuned. My mood is getting a lot better! 
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Hi paula! I just got threw reading your front page and it has really tuched home with me. I have alot of problem’s myself and some like you. I thought there is someone that might really understand how i fill. I’am so down with everything that i don’t know what to do anymore. Iwill be 59 in march and i fill like everything has failed for me in my life. With all my health problem’s, no money , can’t spell good you name it i have it all. It make’s me want to give up you know what i mean. My grandson is 9 and was with me this weekend and more because he had the pink i and a rash all over him. So he had alot of home work to get made up. I had to get an other little kid to come down and help him. Because i didn’t know how to help him on some of it and i have to ask him how to spell word’s that make’s me so ashamed. I hope that you will write to me just to have someone write to me that understand. Thank you paula for listening ae filling and i hope you are filling better.
I loved hearing your story, and am glad we connected through email. I’ll try to get back to you again soon, kid. Hang in there!
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Haven’t heard from you in a while. Hope all is well.
Oh, dear one! So good to see you, albeit SO late. I’m fine.
Just so in love with my work with the kids (struggling readers, children who can’t read) that I can’t seem to tear myself away. I think of it, I dream it, I obsess…it’s just so much FUN to figure out the problems and solve them.
I probably answered this long ago, but it popped up again and showed its face. Who understands the ways of The Blog? I certainly don’t!
Hey. I never said I knew what I was doing on THIS site.
The online reading tutoring, yes. This thing? Hell! Are you kid din’ me?
Hugs to ya,
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Totally appreciate you looking out for the kiddos. It’s probably best we avoid knocking too many of them down steps and killing them off. The legal ramifications of such repeated actions would be, well, interesting, to say the very least.
You’ve got me interested.
Hello, oh Nerdy one! I’m glad you appreciate my consideration of others.
Yes, it just seemed to be to be a bad career move. The exciting news is that my little reading/teaching business is taking off and doing well. I need to rewrite this page, since things are actually looking up. 
Thanks a million for coming by. I appreciate it!
Paula, it’s good that we can laugh and find humor among our trials…
I think you have a marvelous writing style-wonderful way with words….
Keep writing…and…smiling/laughing
))
Bea
I just reread your lovely comment, and feel very grateful to have met you by chance. Such kind thing as you’ve said! Thanks, my friend.
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Love it…you got it going on girl…right down to the nitty-gritty truth of life….
Hang tough-nothing is carved in stone…except Jack Daniels…or was he pickled ?
)
Regardless, he made history-and still makes the stuff that made him history
It’s all good…pun intended~
Bea, lady, girl, whatevah! You’ve got me literally laughing ’til my gut hurts. And that’s a lotta pain.
Great knowing you on Facebook, at your wonderful garden and herb site, and now here too. You get around!
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That is a lot of trials and I understand why you are angry. But your strength and willingness to have a better life is inspiring. I am glad that you added humor in spite of the many challenges. I will always be on the look out for your posts. Stay strong.
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Hi, Kevin, welcome, and I’m so glad you came by. You know, I’m not mad anymore. That’s the thing. Since I wrote this a year ago, things have improved for me dramatically. Your response was fantastic to read, because it shows me something I hadn’t even realized!
I had better write a new home page, because this one is now inaccurate! I’m in a better time and place, although I DO still think that America is in a terrible place, and it’s getting worse.
Frankly, some good old-fashioned acts of rebellion like there were in the 60′s are overdue, and I hope they happen. We have to show Congress that this dead-in-the-water lack of working together is a nightmare, and it’s literally killing people caught in the middle.
What do you think? (Love ya for coming by!)
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Paula, if it’s any consolation, I feel that a lot of people feel the same as you. The funny thing is, at my lowest, I can open up my comments page and some lovely commenter has left such a nice message that it brings me back from the brink with some unknowingly magic words. Or you can read someone’s site whose words echo your own thoughts at the time and shrug off some of the weight on your shoulders realizing that it’s shared weight.
What I’m saying is, hang in there, judging by your own comments people appreciate you. It’s more than a lot can say at their worst.
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Pea, your comment came at just the right moment in time. I had a rough time at a GREAT conference with a hideous hotel experience, and was feeling very low because both my feet are the size of watermelons from the injury I received! And you’ve just made me feel like a million bucks.
The very thing you describe. a lovely remark or comment, can indeed change everything, and you just have. How can I thank you? I suspect I’ll find a way.
Hey, thanks for dropping by, kiddo.
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Paula, if you were a rapper they would call you MC Truth or DJ Truth… or something like that! There is nothing more admirable that truth tellers. People who tell it like it is without (too much) fear.
I enjoy reading a lot of blogs and let me tell you, few people do it quite like you. You speak with a stinging honesty that makes folks first gasp, then identify, and then think, ‘hey perhaps I could be more real too.’
I am so happy that you signed up as I most certainly will also to ensure that I keep reading more of your truth. I’m greedy. I know when I’m on to a good thing. Plus if I can keep internetically (made that up!) popping round to visit and make sure you keep standing shoulder high and the gorgeous Tipsy has been fed and watered it would be my delight, my benefit and my honour.
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I THINK WHAT YOUR DOING IS AMAZING !!
ONE OF MY YOUNGER SON’S HAS A BOY ,( WHO BY THE WAY IS A FOOTBAL PLAYER ) IN HIS CLASS.THIS BOY IS SO SWEET ,BUT HE IS READING ON A THIRD GRADE LEVEL ??? HE AND MY SON ARE FOURTEEN YEARS OLD ??? HERE, IN THE UNITED STATES ,THEY HAVE THIS ” NO CHILD LEFT BEHIND ” POLICY ??? HOW DO YOU PASS A CHILD FROM ONE GRADE TO THE NEXT AND THEM NOT EVEN BE ABLE TO READ THE BOOKS ??? TO ME THIS IS SO CRUEL .IT IS ONLY HURTING THE CHILD ,CAN’T THEY SEE THAT ??? I WANT TO GIVE YOUR SITE ADDRESS TO HIS MOTHER,BECAUSE SHE IS AT HER WITS END !!!
CAN YOU ADVISE HER ??
RAVENHAIR
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Ravenhair, I’m so sorry that we never got the details worked out for your son’s reading, and possibly his friend’s too. Let me know again if I can ever be of help. You know I’d do anything for ya, my friend!
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Im 67 retired
I feel a lot thesame
Don, I see that you’re at charter.net, as I am for email. Are you in St. Louis too?
Isn’t aging weird? !
Hi Paula: I’ve added you to the blogs that are on my virtual nightstand! In this economy, a good sense of humor is essential, and you’ve got a great one.
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Thanks for sharing that, Susan.
Love your blog site, good writing with a hint of humor…the best of combinations~ You hang tough my new friend….and I’ll be back to read more.
Hi Paula
Came over from Mel K’s competition post to say hello again.
I think that we have crossed paths before.
“More to come. I really do hope you stay tuned. My mood is getting a lot better! ”
Happy to stay tuned – hope things get better.
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Keith, we have met and I remember you well. You are a public speaker, and wrote a great post on Oscar speeches. And as I recall, your wife was as adoring as I am of Colin Firth in Pride and Prejudice. Great to see you again. I’ll be by to see you later today. Thanks for coming by again. Oh, and things are going better. I’m doing very well.
Hi Paula
Good to hear that you are doing well.
Thanks for letting me know.
Keith
Paula,
I see that you haven’t written here in a few weeks. I hope you’re ok. Maybe having a nice break?
Hi, Barbara. April and May have been a hodge-podge of a virus neither the Pseudo-Husband nor I can kick, with two conferences stitched in between.
Nothing has gotten done. It’s as if I came to a standstill and slept or travelled. Then did it again, and again, and again. Very upsetting to have all the work I’ve been doing somewhat undone.
But as Gloria Gaynor said back in the day, I Will Survive! I’ll be back, hopefully sooner than later.
And thanks for noticing!
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Hey, Paula, (Isn’t that a song?) I think I just dated myself. As to age, pick one you like and stick with it. In first grade my son was having trouble getting started reading and a special teacher gave him some extra time. After reading his first book with no pictures he said; “Reading is like having a TV inside your head.” I’ll be forever grateful to that teacher, and to all teachers, including you, who recognize the differences between learning styles.
Your story is moving and inspiring. I have a story for you about overcoming adversity but I don’t know you well enough, and lots of those stories make me want to punch someone. Like when people look at my drawings and say, “I know someone who has no hands and she draws with her feet.”
I’m keeping your blog on my Bookmark Menu.
If you hadn’t mentioned Hey, Hey, Paula it would have hurt my feelings! It comes up at least daily in my life. So no, you haven’t dated yourself. Besides, we deserve to be dated…we’ve put in our time!
Your son is a genius. That is an awesome way to describe reading, and I’ve actually used it to help kids “get it.” But he came up with it all on his own! Really bright kid, for sure.
Yes, sometimes one special teacher who realizes what the child needs and supplies it is all it takes to solve the reading issue. So many kids need just a bit of help to get past the block and get moving.
I don’t even understand someone who would make such a nutso comment about art when looking at your stuff. Say WHAT?? I think it’s delightful!
Your blog is in my bookmarks as well! Thanks for coming by, Barbara.
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Hi, Paula,
I’m glad to hear from you–I’ve checked a few times and was getting a little worried. The slow times, like you’ve been experiencing, can be discouraging but I’ve found that they never last and sometimes they’re more like fallow periods when the earth is replenishing itself, or the well is re-filling.
Thanks for the kind words about my son–he is definitely a keeper–and about my work. Actually, nobody I cared about said that about drawing with your toes, but a teacher did look at my work and say;”Well, I can see you’re a very conscienscious [Okay, I'm having bear of a time spelling this word, and it's important to the story--do you know what I mean? Very responsible] person, but nine to five isn’t art.” That hurt, but it didn’t stop me. I put aside my intensive pen and ink and worked in collage–got a lot freer and looser and eventually came up with new work that was better and more interesting. It ended up being a good thing, because he wasn’t dismissive–he recognized my seriousness. By the end of the year he was telling me he looked forward to seeing what I would do, and holding up my work to the class.
Let’s all just keep on keeping on.
Have a great Sunday!
Barbara
conscientious!! My husband looked it up for me. Now there’s a partner.
Glad to have found your blog, you have a great style – especially for a 28 year old! Age is only a number, I think that’s what people usually say, but they – whoever they are – are right for once. There’s no reality only our realisation of how things are. So lets make our own reality – the bottle is half full and other cliches. Take care – Mike.
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Love having you here, Mike! I spent a ton of time at your place last night, and loved every minute. Some of those synchronicities and coincidences are downright eery, but totally cool.
I have one to tell you, but I’m going to write about it here. I’ll send the link to you when it’s done, in case you’re interested. And thanks so much for coming by.
Hi Paula, We spoke yesterday on the phone. I was reading some of your recent posts. My Olivia, a Doberpup is 8 years old and I can not bear the thought of losing her. I started to read your post about losing your Girls and I just couldnt get thru it. Everyday I am thankful to have Liv with me but I know she is getting older…
I read somewhere it takes about 10 years to get used to how old you are……no wonder I am confused !!
See ya soon.
Penny
Paula, thanks for stopping by my blog and commenting! It sounds like you have a lot of good tales to tell, I’m looking forward to hearing them!
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Saw your question on the blogger post asking where to get started. That was really good, most people just show up, post their stuff and wait for the magic. Since you are a real person I decided I better stop by. I think I may keep ‘stopping by.”
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I’m so glad to see you here! Yep, I’m real all right. I’m a little too real, some would say.
I hope you do turn up again. And man oh man, that boot WAS hot! Really liked it.
This must be how prospectors who struck gold feel.
But seriously, it would be an ACCIDENT. Just have your hit list ready before you approach the stairs. Oh, hush, we all have one.
My mood is better already, and I intend to stay tuned. I’ve already missed far too much.
Awesome.
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My hit list is always ready! And you are right. To be without one probably means the individual in question is dead!
I’m so glad you came by, Mamacita. I love your blog! And I’m so glad that I happened upon you today on Facebook. Accidentally.
Isn’t life chancy? Good to see you here as well.
Want to come stuff some bags? It’s a real mood booster!
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I pass, darlin’. I PASS. You hear me? Not. Gonna. Duit!
I found you guys through Extreme John, and I am almost 60 years old! Yes, the America of today is far different then what we knew as kids.
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Well, I must send my thanks to Extreme John, then, and I’m so glad you dropped by! Thank you, and welcome. Yes, so many changes. Good to meet another Almost 60.
Paula, the question above the comment box reads, “What do you think?”
I think I’m damned lucky to have crossed paths with Keith Davis which led me down a pathway to your front door. It’s been a pleasant jaunt.
You’ve said a mouthful here and I adore and admire your blatant candor! I’m a gal who tells it like it is and if you’re not willing to do that on your blog, I say …
Fold up your tent and leave camp!
I’m pretty sure everyone has asked you this already, but have you considered writing a book? Please put me on your advanced notice waiting list.
And I feel the same way about him, and now you as well! What a wealth of great new people I’m meeting through Theresa and Keith.
Thanks a MILLION for coming by. Yepper, I do tell the truth here. It’s a great relief, actually. People do ask me about a book, assuming I’m writing one. I say yes, I am, and have been for 20 years. Does that give you a clue about its lack of wonderfulness? I trash more than I keep!
I’ll be looking for you on my wanderings, and can’t wait to see you again on the internet. You clearly write well—are YOU writing?
You two are perfect to have connected!
I followed you here… from somewhere… my blog maybe or a Facebook group (I’ve got too many tabs open in Firefox right now to remember LOL).
Openness and honesty are two things missing from so many blogs. Nothing wrong with letting out a little of that steam.
And hey, 2 years of blogging has got to equal a book! (Check out http://wordpress.org/extend/plugins/anthologize/)
Yep, I love Melanie! We’re rather similar in lots of ways.
Thanks for stopping by. I’ve been to your site several times, and really like it. I’d know that red streak anywhere.
Thanks for the tip, and I imagine the honesty will keep on coming—I don’t lie well in life or on paper!
Oh young one it would appear that we’re trying to accomplish the exact same thing. My blog will be 2 in July and I haven’t made any appreciable monies from it yet; but I’m still holding out hope.
Hello, ancient friend! I think we are.
It ain’t easy, is it? I’m constantly trolling the web waters, searching for hope. We are truly two of a kind.